Below zero and I'm going crazy here.

Would you believe that I'd rather be working than stuck at home? Yep, it's true. I love the structure of being at school, knowing what to expect (pretty much) from hour to hour, knowing when and what to eat, and knowing when to go home. This sitting around here without direction makes me crazy. So far I've managed to run the dishwasher and put a turkey breast in the slow-cooker. That's about it. I've run to town for a new keyboard and mouse in spite of the cold, because w/out the keyboard I was going to have to kill something. I'm that annoyed at being here. My house is gross - floors need cleaning AGAIN. I hate cleaning and can't afford a cleaning lady. So I guess it's up to me. I gave Hugh a simple list of chores to finish while I was in town, and he did NOTHING. Zero. zilch.nada. I flipping hate that, too. So I just repossessd the TV. Next I repo the wrestling action figures. After that no video games and no computer. I guess he'll have to deal, because that's the way it is.

On to me: I've realized that part of my eating issue is not so much an addiction to particular foods. Rather, I seem to have an addiction to my stomach feeling very full. When I feel full, full, full, I feel comforted. When not - a bit anxious. And this happens mostly at meal times when I am at home. At school, when the food is gone, it's gone. Here, though, I seem to have this funky need to be full full full after supper. If I'm not, lately I've been having a bowl of cereal....or two. On the good - I do have the points left to do that. On the bad - it's a bad habit and another mental glitch I need to work thru. But I will work through it. "just don't eat" is the simplest solution, but it's about more than the food. I'll get it and that'll be a big hurdle gotten over.

I've been working really hard at eating from the "filling foods" list WW has on their web. It's pretty much eating clean, except there is no way I can eat 3 meals and two snacks in a day. There is just no way. But I am seeing good things on the scale, so obviously making better choices is doing the trick.

I didn't stay after weigh-in the other night. I actually came home and did my workout instead of sitting there for 45 minutes. Hugh has been joining me here and there for the DVD walks and workouts. It's kinda cool that he wants to join - but he better not get in my way! He also gets how hard some of the workouts are and that I can do them all -I'm stronger and in a lot better shape than my exterior appearance might dictate. Sometimes I feel like I've got a secret because of that.

I've sort of been trying to counsel one of my kids on nutrition. He's a wrestler, and he's starving himself to cut weight. He doesn't eat much and by the time he has me at day's end he cannot stay awake. This kid has ADD, and he should be wired, but he's not getting enough energy to keep him going. I'm really bothered by the coaches not advocating healthy eating. We are still in the stoneage, I guess. So I've been telling him about energy in and energy out. He's pretty lean, and since he isn't eating enough his body is sacrificing muscle, so he isn't getting any stronger. I don't know if he will listen to me and do as I've recommended, but I tried. Lean protein and vegetables will do him more good than skipping meals, drinking tons of water, peeing and peeing just to make weight only to turn around and gorge himself after weigh in. Chalk this up as another reason I refuse to put my son in wrestling. 4-get-it!

Sooooo, we did just manage to complete the chore list. Guess I've been writing this in stages. Was gonna get a pic of the famous pink boots, but the batteries are all dead and recharging for the digital camera. Guess I'm off to heat up the chili and boil water for some sf jello. Hugh's boiling eggs for egg salad. He conned me into buying a boxed cheesecake mix - he's going to be making cheesecake. Ohhhhh, goody - Kodak moments in the making! Maybe doing some time in the kitchen will make me feel less crabby, cuz I've got serious crankiness right now.

Catch you all later.